annaliese michel

INSOMNIA!!!!
i can't sleep. i've taken sleeping pills the last couple nights and i have DRAMATICALLY cut back on my caffeine intake.
things on my mind, in bullet form, because i'm in an uncomfortable position on my bed right now, but still feel the urge to blog...:
1) Trauma: Life in the ER on Discovery health channel, the episode i just watched was all filmed in the OU Medical center. the lady i babysit for is a nurse in the part of the hospital they were in. very cool. i want to work in medicine. it was a very sad episode though.
2) i went into the bathroom and heard sydney yelling "where did you go?! why are you leaving?!" so i woke her up, and said "sydney you are having a nightmare" and she kept insisting that her two friends were in her, one named "Laura". she won't remember it in the morning. she ALWAYS talks in her sleep and never remembers it in the morning, even if you think she is awake, she just has her eyes open.
3) i still haven't checked my grades online, it's driving me crazy, but i'm too scared to look at my biology grade.
4) it's hot here.
5) i am getting the same feelings here like i did when i was back in high school. the constant boredom and restlessness.
6) i'm so excited but very nervous about Germany. i wasn't nervous at all until 2 days ago.
7) i feel bad for upsetting Arielle.
8) i need more money. and less fat.
9) i hope i make lots of friends in Germany who like to do the same things I do.
10) i really want to date someone right now. this is so NOT like me, but ever since i started dating, this is the longest i've gone without someone. it's not like i HAVE to or anything, i'm not one of those girls. but i would still like one.


stuff to possibly download:
1) the ting tings--shut up and let me go
2) chromeo
3) los campesinos--death to los campesinos
4) tokyo police club--in a cave
5) weezer--pork and beans / perfect situaton
6)crystal castles--courtship dating
7) adele--chasing pavements (this one is iffy, she wasn't that great, but i've heard good reviews)

things to do:
1) go to the bank and make my debit card available in europe
2) get my phone fixed
3) work out
4) babysit/work
5) take off toe nail polish
6) make my bed
7) tell logan to do his chores, i.e. laundry, and when he ignores me, do it myself
8) drink more coffee
9) download music
10) get friends addresses and make KT a mix CD

life goals at 2:17 am:
1) attempt to be happy. with myself and where i am in life.
2) be successful, in all aspects
3) get married
4) have kids
5) be financially stable
6) go to Germany
7) own my own house with people i love in it
8) pay back my parents, not necessarily monetarily
9) make peace with my older brother
10) be completely off all medications