tornado!

so it's 2am, and I was going to go to sleep, but there when i was driving home around midnight it was all stormy and lightening every second. and for the past 45 minutes the TV has been flickering the warning signs, and all the local channels are covered in Doppler radar and going warnings for Oklahoma and Logan county. I'm in Cleveland County, but it is right on the border of oklahoma county, so i'm worried! Not only can i hear all the pool furniture falling over and the wind chimes going crazy, BUT i have to fly tomorrow back to Seattle! I have to fly from OKC to Cincinatti and then to Seattle...oi, that's going East then semi-back tracking back West. and it's going to be storming all across the US tomorrow...great. not. i'm already so paranoid flying, i'm not looking forward to flying tomorrow. hopefully be able i'll write another blog.
and i'm excited to start classes, but i wish i wasn't missing the first day of class. but i suppose it's necessary, if i wanted to come home, which i'm SO glad i did. I needed a break from seattle for a week. but i'm ready to go back. I got a new military ID, Passport arrived, new stickers for my husky card, found that old check from TC, and arielle (well her mama) paid me back for the sasquatch ticket. and i am really glad I got to see my family. i missed them. I wish i had seen jarrett more though.

(OMG i'm watching Taboo food, and they havae Belut Eggs, GROSS! jenny ate one! so so sick. I don't know why you would ever want to eat one.) oi, i need to charge my ipod. i think i'm going to try to fall asleep now.
(also, i feel bad for the ugly Kardashian sister.)

wish me luck on my flight >_<
<3

home, home on the range

well, i'm back in Oklahoma. and i'm really glad i'm here. even if nothing special happens, which i doubt it well, nor am i expecting anything but relaxation, i'm glad i came here. my little baby finley has gotten HUGE! a big grown up cat, and he is so fat! he and the other animals def remembered me, finley has been falling me around all day and last night slept with me all night, so cute! I just chilled today, so Jarrett for a little bit, worked out, played Frisbee, watched some Discovery Health Channel, fug yeah! oh man, today! this is crazy, i was in my car and i happened to open the little thing between the seats, and i had a check in there from Taco Cabana from 28 december! WTF! i never cashed it, and it goes void in 90 days, so i added up the days and it's been EXACTLY 89 days!!!!!! so i rushed and cashed it, amazing, an unexpected weeks worth of pay. i mean, yeah i worked for it, so it's not like i got the money for free, but i can't believe i never cashed it, i usually do it on my way home from work the day i get it! weird.
also, i haven't seen arielle all day which is lame. and tomorrow i'm going to work tomorrow with my mom, cute! so i better dress cute, because she'll be saying "this is my daughter from washington" like a zillion times. then i'm taking sydney out to lunch and probably gym then and hang out with arielle and/or Jarrett.
oh, and my lip is healing very nicely.
so just now, like 10 minutes ago, my dad called my sister and i over to show us this clip of an Obama speech and how it's "horrifying" and when it was over, i was like "...and?" i told him i voted for him in the primaries and he said he was "disappointed" then he went thru the video and kept pausing it to explain why Obama was wrong, etc. I think my dad is an absolute genius, no doubt about that. the man is freaking brilliant, however, his strict childhood with a military father and Catholic mother and then going to the Air Force academy and being in the military for 20+ years, has significantly impacted his political point of view. and I admit, he knows a hell of a lot more about the military and politics in general, then i do, but at the same time, i disagree with about 50% of his opinion. he gives facts, but his POV on the situation is definitely not mine. anyways, i feel like he is brainwashing my sister. and i know i'm not perfect, and i know i was president of young republicans for 2 years, and i used to eat up what he said with a spoon, but now, because of college, i have changed my opinion on many things for the better. (also, i am not trying to defend Obama, but i suppose i like him more then Clinton and McCain :/ )
gross, i don't want to talk about politics.
OH! so my sister is dying parts of my head red. i hope it looks good!
okay, well, i hear my sister trying to convince my dad to get a puppy, even though we have 3 fat cats and one fat dog, but it's never going to fly. it's from her boyfriends dog. should have got it spayed. oh, and i found out some depressing knews about how the life of her ex-best friend is going. the girl is messed up, i tell ya. sad. my sister however, is such a good girl, oi vey. i love my familie!

so....i'm flying home tomorrow

<--- this is creepy!

so, yeah....it's not like me normally, and i don't want to sound 'weak' but i got homesick all of a sudden and i've been sooo stressed out with chemistry and other details in my life, that saturday night i came to the realization, i want to go home. like, now! i considered looking up flights at 3am but someone was sleeping in my living room and that's where my laptop was, so i waited until the morning and i called my mom, and she was like "well come on home then!" and she bought me a ticket. i feel guilty as usual because i'm a bottomless money sucking pit of a daughter, but i know she and the rest of my family really want to see me, so yeah, she bought me a ticket this morning, and i'm flying home tomorrow. i'll be there for a week, monday to monday, and i'm missing monday of school, but hey, it's worth it. i might sound like a baby, but i want to go home, and now i am :)
so yeah...i need to go to the gym like a zillion times a week. i'm watching chelsea lately and raven symone has gotten so fat! she is talking about eating healthy and not gaining weight from the food she eats...geez. well, yeah, i should NOT be talking. omg, i'm tired, this blog is pointless, AS USUAL! okay, i'm going back to Oklahoma for a week, i hope it goes well!

recovering in my dark room

so yesterday was pretty awesome, up until maybe 11 or midnight. the day started off with Sarah and I going to the gym and working out which was nice. it was also gorgeous out. then we finished our spring cleaning, well not finished, but we did the basement, and omg, does it look good. unfortunately, we think we upset Sami. here's the deal, the downstairs room has a beer pong table, that takes up the whole room, and then a bunch of storage and unused stuff around it. the beer pong table is Sami's and she loves it, everyone does, it's a lot of fun. but it's only used a parties. Also, everyone in the house, minus Sami, has been wanting to turn the room into a sitting room. So, Sarah and I did just that. We took EVERYTHING out and scrubbed it clean. Now the room has a futon, which will be nice when people need a place to stay. Also, I put my TV, DVD player, and N64 down there, all on an extra coffee table we had. We will also move the play stations down there. We also found a lamp and Sarah's side table. We moved the palm tree I gave them 2 years ago almost, in there and we decorated the walls with rugby stuff. Oh, and the red paupason chair. It basically is awesome. but we still have sami's beer pong table and underneath that was a fooze ball table. So we put the fooze ball table on the porch, because there is NO where else to put it, and the pong table can be moved on and off from the dinning table. anyways, sami was upset when she saw it. I just got off the phone and talked to her all about what i was gonna blog about, and i'm feeling lazy. the point is: last night our party was much smaller then expected, and i literally blacked out and i'm really freaked out about it. i really hate the feeling of not remembering past a certain point. i woke up this morning and flipped out because i don't know how i got there. the last thing i remember was sitting at the coffee table playing a game with everyone. past then, i have NO idea, literally. except what some people told me >_< okay don't want to think about that right now.
so i'm going to do this to pass the time, because if i get out of bed again, i think i'll puke.
1) Favorite Cook Out food?
veggie burgers/grilled veggies


2) Favorite Summer Drink?
grande-iced-soy-caramel latte from starbucks


3) What do you look forward to when summer comes?
LIVING IN BERLIN!!

4) Do you join any sports?
Rugby!


5) Do you wear a one-piece or two piece?
well, i've gotten a lot fatter this year so i don't want to think about that


6) Would you rather it be winter?
nope, i'm ready for spring and summer!

7) How many times do you hit the beach?
oklahoma is land locked and i'm never in Seattle during the summer

8) How many BBQ's do you have?
i had one last night!


9) What time do you go to bed in the summer?
depends on my work schedule

10) Do you go camping?
I wish.


Summer - This Or That:

1) Flip-Flops or shoes?
Shoes. i loathe flip flops

2) Beach or Pool?
Beach

3) Hot Tub or Page 2 at GoofyAuctions.


what is goofy auctions? either way, hot tub fo' sho'


4) Bug-Bite or Sun burn?
Bug Bite

5) Better swimsuit piercing: Nipples or Belly?
belly

6) Hang with friends or Family?
Friends usually

8) Hit the clubs or BBQ's?
vegetarian bbq

9) Layout or fake bake?
Layout, fake tanning is grosssss

Last Summer - 2007:

1) How many times did you go to the Ocean?
zero

2) Did you go to Disney World or Cedar Point?
No

3) What Vacations did you go on?
came home to oklahoma and went to lake powell and colorado with jenny

4) Who did you hang with everyday?
arielle and jarrett

5) What was the worst memory of last summer?
Missing Seattle

6) How did you celebrate the Fourth of July?
i was at Lake Powell! we did fireworks and had fun

7) What was one thing you did EVER week last summer?
breath


9) Favorite summer 2007 clothing item?
my yellow wedges

10) Favorite song of last summer?
the night at the roxbury soundtrack

This Summer - 2008:

1) Where will you be going on vacation?
GERMANY!

2) How will you celebrate the Fourth of July?
in Germany, so idk


3) The best place to be this summer?
Germany

Did you date anyone this past summer?
nope!

Who was the last friend in your house?
i live with friends

How's your ex doing?
idk

Is there someone you want to fight?
hmmmm...probably

What color shirt were you wearing when your last kiss took place?
um, last night, even though those didn't count, a black flogging molly shirt

Song playing right now?
none

Does anyone like you?
i would hope so

What are you thinking about right now?
trying not to puke

What’s your middle name?
which one

What were you doing an hour ago?
trying not to puke

Where were you friday night?

had a party at my house

Do you wear the seatbelt in the car?
of course

Has anyone ever mistaken you for someone else?
probably

Next vacation you're going on?
going to the big bad city--Berlin!

Do you have any piercings?
gauging my ears right now, 4 in my ears, and i used to have a monroe, and i really want something else

Do you like to text or call more?
Depends

What's the closest blue object to you?
my pillow

Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your bf/gf?
i'd be mad, but yeah i probably could

Is there anyone you hate?
eh, let's not hate

Do you like the color orange?
not as much as bonnie does

Do tattoos and piercings excite you?
yes, not so much tattoos though

Where was your last long road trip to?
well, since the mini road trip to the home of carrie underwood never worked out, to colorado and lake powell

Sometimes, do you wish you were someone else?
Yeah

What is the weather like today?
idk, i am hiding from the sunlight today



Worst job you have ever had?
soccer ref

Why did your last relationship end?
loss of interest

Who did you last talk to on the phone for over 20 minutes?
arielle

Where will you be in an hour?
hopefulyl feeling better

it's about time

finals are over. it's Spring Break. hells yeah bitches! Friday is going to be fun--party! okay, i'm going to sleep now.

letter to zumdahl

Dear Chemistry,

You can suck my balls.

Yours Truly,

LinzEBM

ach yo!

so finals start tomorrow. it's 9:33pm and what have i accomplished since i got home. i cleaned the kitchen and my room. showered. made some amazing eggplant/pasta. watched CSI SVU....but what SHOULD i be doing. studying german! i did make flash cards, there are like 50+ and i went thru them, but i can't concentrate! i have my German final in the morning and right now i'm blogging and listening to Cat Power. OH and i printed out the Sasquatch tickets that i bought last Saturday...AH! i'm so excited! but back to in the moment. I'm glad that it's finals, b/c it's closer to Spring Break, however! finals are hard, and it's the last chance to do well and get good grades. i basically have to ace all my finals, no pressure there. and Monday is St. Patrick's day! i think i will make an exception that night, and have a little fun if something is going down. something i can participate in! b/c i'm not fucking 21. it puts a major damper on my social life, geez. thank God it doesn't mater in Deutschland! okay back to studying! (oh and if anyone downloads music or has the Gegen die Wand soundtrack and would like to share, that would be much appreciated)
Here is all the Vocab I have to memorize backwards and forwards by tomorrow morning, along with a bunch of grammar shiznit, oh joy!:

Sich das Leben nehmen--to kill oneself

Sich um.bringen—to kill oneself

Einen Knall haben—to be crazy

Unverzeihlich—unforgivable

Weg.werfen—to throw away

Krepieren—to die (ugs)

Was hast du davon…?—what good would it do you...?

Bei.bringen—to teach

Erreichen—to achieve

Durch.drehen—to crack up

Senkrecht—vertical

Waagrecht—horizontal

An.fassen—to touch

Erwischen—to catch

Taub—deaf

Bekloppt—crazy

Wahnsinnig—insane

Bescheuert—crazy

In Schwierigkeiten stecken—to be in trouble

Was geht das dich an?—of what concern is that to you?

Jdn. Einwickeln—to trap s.o.

Jdm. Etwas schuldig sein—to owe s.o. s.th.

Segnen—to bless

Verziehen—to bring up badly; to spoil

Mein Beileid!—my sympathies!

Hin und wieder—now and then

Der Geschäftsführer—manager

Zur Sache kommen—to get to the point

Gefällen finden an + dativ—to like s.o.

Schätzen—to guess

Filzen—to search s.o.

Das kommt nicht in die Tüte—no way, no how

Pennen—to sleep

Rausschmeißen—to throw out

Klauen—to steal

Pleite sein—to be broke

Der Anteil—share

An.geben—to boast

Einen/keinen Bock haben auf—to be/not to be in the mood

Der Kanake—derogatory word for Turk

Misch dich nicht in unsere Familienangelegenheiten.—Don’t interfere in our family affairs.

Der Puff—brothel

Wenn’s zu bunt wird—to go too far

Verhext—bewitched

Jdm. Aus dem Weg gehen—to steer clear of s.o.

Kapieren—to understand

Der Zuhälter—pimp

Jdn. Zur Sau machen—to bawl s.o. out

Ein.stellen—to employ

Verraten—to tell

Die Verantwortung tragen—to carry responsibility

Sich verlassen auf + AKK—to rely on

Bist du nicht mehr ganz dicht?—Are you out of your mind?

Abschieben—to throw out

Nicht der Rede wert.—don’t mention it.

Sich Sorgen machen um—to worry about

X marks the spot

surprise surprise, i'm having a shitty night. the light switch got flicked. X marks the spot now. i want to crawl in a hole and die. yes, i realize i'm an over dramatic emo kid, but hey, that's me.

i just wish for once, things would go my way and i could get what i want in life.

:(

mac'n'cheese (spiral kind)

oi, so it's 4:54 on a Wednsday, which means I have an hour before I need to catch my bus to my Lab. I hate lab now. It should be fun but it's not. I hate my post labs the most, and what do you know, i'm turning mine in late, as usual! not once did I turn in my labs late last quarter. I'm such a slacker, and i'm realzing AGAIN that i'm not going to make it into Dental school. I'm now considering public health, along with german. I have two weeks to decide if I want to stay in my pre-med classes next quarter, or start taking public health classes. this stresses me out.
what also stresses me out, is that I'm getting Bs not As on my German essays, I really need to step it up.
i am so excited for spring break!!! not that I'm doing anything in particular, but that's the point, i don't have to do anything! i can sit around in my boxers and watch TV all day if I wanted to. however, i'll probably be doing that and drinking and going to the beach and causing trouble and having fun! i'm super excited!! i'm sad that a lot of people are going away though :( and i'm sad Marian is going to Chile, but at the same time, good for her! OH! and my little sister got a much better score on her ACT, 25, and got accepted into her Cosmotology school! only 20 of the 100 girls/guys got in! go sister!
I really want to go to Gas works soon. I wish I hadn't been so tired when Gawf went, that would have been fun. over spring break though i'm sure i will!
ack! tonight i'm going to miss ANTM b/c of lab. lameeee. but this should be the last one I miss! :D
last night we had a mini german night, which was fun. I went to the little German store too, it was so cute. I got some Rotkohl, yum!
was noch...ich weiss nicht. i must go get ready for class....then i have to do a two hour long survey online, but i get EC, so it's all good.
Frieden-Aus! lol

der Granatapfel...gegen Mitternacht

mmmm ich bin sehr bequem jetz. ich habe gedouscht und ich habe Rocky Road Eis mit Kokosnuss und Walnuesse gegessen. sehr gut. meine Kerze geht (laut, es ist ein "holz Docht" Kerze). Letze nacht Jenny und ich haben ein Party gehabt. Es macht Spass, aber ich hass viele dessen Maenner-Rugby-Manschaft. Nate macht mich boese, wenn er deinen kleinen Schwanz mir geschaut. Obwohl schaute ich nicht an. Er schaut das, weil er weisst, dass ich die Maenner nicht mag und er sagt, dass ich schwule bin. Alle war in MEINEM Haus! Verpiss sich.
Mein Gott, am Donnerstag, haben wir (viele Freundinnen) 60 Bier-Schuesse in 60 Minuten. Es war sehr schwer. Spaeter haben wir zum Park gegangen und wir haben dort gepullert! lol. Und Spaeter AEP=lame. okay, ich habe mit Arielle und Jenny und Sarah an AIM gesprochen und ich geht jetzt. aber letzt: ich mag eine Frau und ich hoffe, dass sie mich augh mag.