R.I.P. Jon T. Loch

so i'm back in Oklahoma. i'm already bored and ready to go back to Seattle, ASAP. Every time I come back here, it gets worse and worse. I wish my family lived in Everett or Kirkland or somewhere outside of Seattle, but still close enough that it doesn't take an entire day to get home. Nevertheless, I'm glad to see them and be in my nice warm house with lots of food and my kitties and dog. I'm pretty disappointed that I'm not getting to hang out with Arielle, however, it's a good thing I missed my flight in Atlanta, because otherwise i wouldn't have gotten to see her. I was literally leaving my plane all glum, when i heard her call my name, and sure enough, there was arielle! she was about to board the plane I just got off of! Fate! So, even though it was only for like 2 minutes, i'm glad I got to see her! she looked good! i'm jealous that she is going to germany though, hehe.
but yeah, i'm glad this quarter is finally over. it has definitely been the hardest one yet. i don't even want to check my grades, oi. i was sick, hurt, fat, depressed, confused, etc. ackkkk and then the icing on the fucking cake, we were supposed to have a great party and i was so sick from the night before, i couldn't drink and my friend died. I can't believe it, JT died. (god, my friends are so sweet too, i feel like i ruined the end of their party too, but i'm really thankful for their kindness). anyways, tomorrow is his funeral. I am just in shock. he is so hilarious and i really liked him. I just talked to him on myspace not that long ago, and my sister saw him this week when getting her nails done. she said that he wasn't himself, super quiet and depressed looking. he is such a loner. apparently he started doing hard drugs too, which is horrible. I just read his death notice in the paper, and it said that his boyfriend was his "best friend". I honestly think a huge cause of his death was related to the way that oklahoma treats the gay community. He was openly gay and very feminine. he dressed like a girl most of the time, and looked fabulous doing it. I remember one time, me, arielle, sydney, JT, and his friend all went to OKC to the gay club and then went to IHOP and his house and chilled. it was a great night that i'll always remember. he had his issues, but who doesn't. i just wish he would have told someone, or had lived somewhere more accepting.

i can't write anymore, but i will later this week i'm sure. i have nothing better to do.

Das Göttliche

ack! so i haven't been here in awhile and i shouldn't be here now! I am hours away from freedom...though short lived it will be. I'll finish my finals tomorrow morning, have fabulous days Thursday and Friday and then presumably with a massive hangover, fly back home with none of my family waiting at the airport and then spend close to three weeks doing nothing in Normal, Oklahoma. I'm going to try to work out a lot, since i've been out of rugby for over a month know on account of my ankle. oi vey. also, during those three weeks, my life is going to be hella stressful....details later....point is, i'm not looking forward to going home...although i love my family and horribly miss my pets and sister! G-d I love her!

anyways, over break i'll be blogging a lot because i'll have nothing else to do.... but for now, it's back to my main man Goethe!



Das Göttliche

Edel sei der Mensch,
Hilfreich und gut!
Denn das allein
Unterscheidet ihn
Von allen Wesen,
Die wir kennen.

Heil den unbekannten
Höhern Wesen,
Die wir ahnen!
Ihnen gleiche der Mensch!
Sein Beispiel lehr uns
Jene glauben.

Denn unfühlend
Ist die Natur:
Es leuchtet die Sonne
Über Bös und Gute,
Und dem Verbrecher
Glänzen wie dem Besten
Der Mond und die Sterne.

Wind und Ströme,
Donner und Hagel
Rauschen ihren Weg
Und ergreifen
Vorüber eilend
Einen um den andern.

Auch so das Glück
Tappt unter die Menge,
Faßt bald des Knaben
Lockige Unschuld,
Bald auch den kahlen
Schuldigen Scheitel.

Nach ewigen, ehrnen,
Großen Gesetzen
Müssen wir alle
Unseres Daseins
Kreise vollenden.

Nur allein der Mensch
Vermag das Unmögliche:
Er unterscheidet,
Wählet und richtet;
Er kann dem Augenblick
Dauer verleihen.

Er allein darf
Den Guten lohnen,
Den Bösen strafen,
Heilen und retten,
Alles Irrende, Schweifende
Nützlich verbinden.

Und wir verehren
Die Unsterblichen,
Als wären sie Menschen,
Täten im Großen,
Was der Beste im kleinen
Tut oder möchte.

Der edle Mensch
Sei hilfreich und gut!
Unermüdet schaff er
Das Nützliche, Rechte,
Sei uns ein Vorbild
Jener geahneten Wesen!
Johann Wolfgang Goethe