continuation

okay, so this is the rest of my last blog, since it was interupted. i went out to dinner with my dad which was nice, we ended up not going to gas works because he was tired from going nonstop since 5am. i had a great time and i love seeing my dad because he would do anything for me and my siblings and mom (and his parents), he is such a great guy. i was so worried though when he was here because he was looking around the house very carefully. then in my room he saw my lighter for the candles (and the occasional clove...) and was like "what is that for???...oh the candels" i'm on edge always with them and i hate it, i suppose it's because i hide a lot from them. i don't really "lie" but i just hide some stuff. one good example, is i'm taking psychology of human sexuallity, but i just tell them i'm taking "psych" because they would get all weird and freaked out knowing that i'm taking a 'sex' class and the fact that i would want to take that class. and then today my dad made several comments referring to the fact that i "need a boyfriend" and that i should "have more male friends" etc. then i'd feel awkward and be silent. after the years of repressing my sexuallity, having them tell me to "stay away from boys!" and discouraging me from dating, NOW all of a sudden "why don't you have a boyfriend????"

it's annoying.

but i still love them.

oh and i finally got the cable working, it was so simple after doing a zillion things. i'm glad, but now i can't find the remote!

waiting for Godot

well, its the end of the 3 day weekend and i'm currently waiting for my dad to come by and see the house. i'm quite nervous because the house is usually pretty messy and littered with alcohol. half of the day was spent cleaning, and hiding alcohol, and the other half was chemistry. he had a meeting today and has one tomorrow here, and what do you know, i live here too. i don't know where we'll go out to dinner tonight, he wants a salad and i'm a vegan so our choices are kinda limited. i also think i will take him to Gas Works to see the awesome view.

Maybe see if he'll take me to Target and get some shampoo too--> he just called, he is here!

two thousand and eight

well the new quarter is upon us and so far it's off to a pretty good start. i love one class, like 2 others, and am scared of the 4th. I'm taking a continuing german class which i'm not too worried about, but i always have to be on my toes when it comes to german. i tend to let my mind wander and next thing i know, everyone is starring at me and waiting for a reply, when i hadn't been paying attention, and sometimes you can talk around it in English, but it's pretty hard to in another language. so this class is on my "like" list. my other "like" class is chemistry. last quarter, if you read my previous blogs, i did horribly. but after a long tear filled self-loathing conversation with my parents, we have come to the conclusion that I will continue on the pre-Dental track, and they will support me in whatever I do and however long it takes me, as long as I'm doing what I love. It's really nice and great of them. I basically have awesome parents...most of the time. yeah they are crazy, but they have a lot of good qualities too, and hey, they are my parents, and that's not gonna change, nor would i want it too. so on my "love" list, I am taking Human Sexuallity, which is a psychology course, and it is fucking bad ass. It's SO interesting and I love it all! Finally, the class I'm scared of, is one I am proctoring, a German Film class. I'm so shy, why did I sign up for this?! i'm younger then the people i'm grading and teaching, and one girl in my group is better at german then me, i swear! but she did live in germany for SIX YEARS!!! and her family is all german! WTF! why is she in a beginning German Film class? she said she is going to switch to Advanced, but she already practically showed me up in front of the other students. LAME. but I will get over it, and I still think they think i'm really good, so, hey, let's see where it goes.

So I'm moved into my new house and room. I like it here, but I still miss a lot of things about living in the dorms. mainly Jenny and the convience of being on campus. but I like having my own room and being able to cook. mmmm I love cooking. my vegan diet is consisting of too many beans and rice though, I need to spice it up a little bit.

So today something else happened as well. I don't really feel comfortable even saying it in my blog, only with Jenny and Arielle really. seriously, they are the only two, well sorta. I suppose Tiffany hears all my drama as well ;). but everything came rushing back today and I feel sad and happy and calm and crazy all at the same time.

fudgeeeeeee.