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so i am absolutely freezing as usual. i've been back from practice for about an hour and i still have my coat and hat on >_< it was ridiculously windy, making it so damn cold today, oi! and now i'm blogging instead of doing my German homework. I think I should maybe start taking my Ritalin again. I've been having the same problems I had before with paying attention and reading. God, I hate being all druged up all the time, but I'd be dead if I didn't have my anti-depressents, so I'm glad for those babies. Speaking of, after my 3 month slump, my psychatrist added a new treat to my morning lineup, and it actually is working amazingly. Almost a little too well....I sometimes like being blue and feeling empty and not caring. well, it's not really that i 'like' it, i actually hate it, but somehow that feels like me. plus, my dirty habit that i've been doing for the past 3-4 months has become virtually impossible to do now, and i have no desire to anymore. it basically killed my addiction to that, which i suppose is a good thing.
anyways!
2 late post-lab chemistry reports, 5% off both because they were late. it was because i waited for my lab partner to do it, which is dumb i guess, so this time i'm just going to do it without him and if he wants to work together, great, but i'm not going to expect it.
oh and our game this weekend, is cancelled. poop-sicle. but at the same time, i'm kinda glad for the following reasons.

• we don't have to travel for 8 hours in one day (4 hours both ways)
• we won't get our spirits crushed when they physically crush us
• they suck at socialling
• our saturday won't be completely shot
• we don't have to wake up at 5/6am

i love making lists. excpet that's not a real list, but i liked the bullets. so, we voted, and since everyone is sick we only have 15 girls, exactly enough, no subs, and if anyone gets hurt, then we have to play down a girl, so instead we are having a saturday practice and maybe watching a breakers game and maybe playing a little scrimmage against the Bside breakers and then the best part, social w/ just our team (bonding!) that night! hehe. except two of the new girls, who are really cool, won't be there because they are going to oregon for the weekend. :(

anyways, i'm still freezing, and i should do my homework, because i stayed home from going bowling for Wendy's b-day. and tomorrow vagina monolouges with gawf! I miss hanging out with her everyday. and then saturday's a rugby day (kinda)!

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