continuation

okay, so this is the rest of my last blog, since it was interupted. i went out to dinner with my dad which was nice, we ended up not going to gas works because he was tired from going nonstop since 5am. i had a great time and i love seeing my dad because he would do anything for me and my siblings and mom (and his parents), he is such a great guy. i was so worried though when he was here because he was looking around the house very carefully. then in my room he saw my lighter for the candles (and the occasional clove...) and was like "what is that for???...oh the candels" i'm on edge always with them and i hate it, i suppose it's because i hide a lot from them. i don't really "lie" but i just hide some stuff. one good example, is i'm taking psychology of human sexuallity, but i just tell them i'm taking "psych" because they would get all weird and freaked out knowing that i'm taking a 'sex' class and the fact that i would want to take that class. and then today my dad made several comments referring to the fact that i "need a boyfriend" and that i should "have more male friends" etc. then i'd feel awkward and be silent. after the years of repressing my sexuallity, having them tell me to "stay away from boys!" and discouraging me from dating, NOW all of a sudden "why don't you have a boyfriend????"

it's annoying.

but i still love them.

oh and i finally got the cable working, it was so simple after doing a zillion things. i'm glad, but now i can't find the remote!