who is from Nordrhein-Westfalen?!?!

so another day in berln. i skipped class again, why...i'm not sure. i was woken up by a delightful phone call, from my usually drunk friends. they were swimming at the beach, how lovely. i just remembered that i missed the small conor oberst show in seattle, schade. oh, and i finished the book "russian disco". it was ...good. i liked it but there wasn't really any meaning to it. it wasn't really a novel, it was just what the title says, "everyday lunacy in the streets of berlin". so LOTS of short chapters with random stories. only a few were really connected, well they were all connected in that they dealt with russians/immigrants living in Berlin, but that's about all. I told my host-mother that i read it but she seemed weary of the book. perhaps the Berliners don't like it themselves. idk. but my teacher seemed happy that i was reading it, so who knows. today i bought some nailpolish, it's supposed to be purple, but it looks black. but i'm okay with that. also, i wandered in to H&M and ended up buying a new shirt/vest. i've been looking for a vest since January! i'm glad i waited, because this one is PERFECT. it's dark purple! my favorite color!!!! and i got a black plain Hemd to go with it. HOWEVER, when i was leaving the dressing room, i had also some other random articles of clothing, one being a "Hemdkleid". so basically it looked like a man's button up blue, slightly stripped, shirt, yet longer and fit for a woman, and it is meant to be a dress. i would have bought it in a heartbeat, but i didn't want to spend any more money. so when i was leaving, it was in front of all the other clothes, and i was hanging it back on the rack of clothes you don't want, when this lady stopped me. to give you more of a picture in your head, the shirt/dress was Large (because i am quite large, especially compared to all the skinny germans), and it was unbuttoned, so it looked even larger. so, being a large size, unbuttoned, and a dress, it did look big i guess. so this lady, who was taller then me and i had noticed earlier because she had grossly large breasts, stares at the Hemdkleid and says (in german natuerlich) "is that a maternity dress?" and i instantly shrugged my shoulders b/c i was in my own zone for the past hour not speaking a word of german, and while shrugging my brain translated what she said. great. basically i look pregnant. or at least, like i wear pregnant clothing. i looked down while leaving, red in the cheeks, at my little pot belly. i suppose it does look like i could have another human being growing inside me, and i should probably do some more crunches and lay off the beer, but i'd say it goes with the rest of my big body, and personally I don't think i look pregnant, but apparently i do. greattttttttt.
so, as i said in my last blog, i was hopping that Manny instead of the romanian girl would come babysit. but my host mother came home with her son, so i gave up my hope and stopped thinking about it. i went to the store and came back and she wasn't home and i went on the computer as usual. (she always makes snide comments about me always being online). anyways, i'm sitting here, looking only semi-decent when the doorbell rings from down stairs. i assume susanne has left her keys, so i say into the intercom "helllllllllo?" and then a man's voice replys and catches me off guard and it's Manny! i was surprised to hear him b/c A) they weren't here and B) susanne was w/ the child. so i ask him, in english, b/c i'm a retard "are you hear to babysit??" and he says "yes" and i ring him up. i leave the door open and go to the computer. he comes in and i'm like 'thomas?" and i tell him in german "sorry for speaking english blah blah, susanne isn't here blah blah" turns out he is a bit early and he is really sweaty. he was saying something too fast in german and so i said "was? (what?)" just wanting him to slow down but he speaks english for like the first time i've ever heard, other then when he says American band/movie names. and he says something to the sort, in a HEAVY german accent "i run here, sweat a lot" omg. can you say adorable! apparently he DOESNT speak english very well. i thought he was fluent. now, maybe it was just a bad moment for his english, and maybe he is good, but from what i know, he isn't...let's say...perfect. then he is unbuttoning his shirt and i nervously start glancing at back and forth between my computer and him, so as to not stare, and i'm sure my face flushed b/c then he started buttoning it back up, and i don't think he has anything to hid, his arms are pretty buff. and then he asks if he can take a quick shower, b/c like i said he was pretty sweaty from running her. and i couldn't help but notice the way the light hit his moist cheeks and made his face look pretty chiseled. omg, look at me going on and on! but i'll continue. so then i got this huge ass smile on my face, because i am SUCH a dork. he asks for a towel so i get him one and he is so grateful, b/c as usual he is SO nice. then he is in the shower as i'm here in the living room like 'omg.' but then susanne and the child come home, "great". my imagination bubble popped w/ a loud snap! then i heard him say my name to the child later and it took me a second to realize he said my name, b/c it wasn't like "germangermangermanLINDSAYgermangerman". it all blended together, b/c like i said, apparently he has a mega german accent, that i never really thought about before. then i had to go cause i was meeting up w/ my friends, which was awesome we saw "american hardcore" and ate at this awesome restaurant. then i got home at midnight and he was still there, even though susanne answered the door, and i was like WTF? in my head. i think they were having a heart to heart though, she is a single mom who works a lot and has been having too much to do, cause when he left he gave her a hug, but NOT like there was something sexual going on behind the scenes, it was totally innocent. i swear. plus, she has a boyfriend. or i think he is her boyfriend. they sleep together at least. omg, i hope she never reads this! i go on and on about all this! goodness me. anywho, i heard him say to her that he will be stopping by sunday. yessssss. wait, but she is leaving tomorrow for vacation?!? did i hear that wrong? or will i be a freak and stay home all day sunday in hopes that he'll come by and only lil'ole me will be here?? probably that, cause i'm a freak, as previously stated. also, she is going on vacation for 2 weeks, but may only stay for 1 week. and she might, if no one at work takes her Ubahn pass, let me have it for those 1, or 2, weeks. which would save me a lot of money! i'm only here for 3 more weeks, and that would cost me 72euros, which is over 100$! woo hoo! maybe then i'll go back and buy that Hemdkleid.

okay, after reading this blog, it has further reestablished the FACT that i am a bonafied creeper/freak/loser.

I should try to be less of that. btw, who reads me blog anyways??! am i talking to no one, or what? i see that the hit-counter goes up everyday, but i hardly ever get any comments....if you read this you should leave a comment saying either "freak" "loser" or "creeper" for which ever you think describes me the best.

danke sehr,
verrueckt!!!!!


my school/neighborhood!!! see the brown middle chunk of buidling, south on your screen of the park w/ the water tower thing. that's my school! and in the park there is a built in trampoline. it's fun.